Sometimes I feel left out of things because people know that I run. The invites to go out to the bars become fewer and far in between on Friday's becaue you have declined too often due to having to get up early the next morning for a long run. You feel like you have less things to talk about becaues all you want to talk about is how your neck is sore from straining and grimacing so much from your first incline workout the previous day. You limp and lope around because your calves hurt and your co-workers tell you to stop running if its so painful and causes injury.
I get lots of advice without asking for it, and lots of grief and worried looks for no reason. I have been pulled off to the side due to my weight loss over the past year. Ummm I have been running and eating healthy. I have been told not to run so many miles. I have been told that when I am 40 I will have wished I didn't run so much in my 20's. I have been told to eat more sugar, and more greasy food to increase my calories. I have been told to do this or to do that. Why would I want to please someone that clearly has no idea what I am going through? I do not want to increase my calories via fast food and/or fried food just to make someone else happy.
People look at me weird when I pass on brownies or re-fill my water bottle that holds 32oz for the tenth time that day. I am so tired of the looks and the comments. I wish that I worked in a fitness industry where my weird habits of eating peppers and hummus for lunch wasn't frowned upon or induced concern. I wish that I could rave about my run from last night to someone, instead of fearing that someone will hear that I ran 10 miles the day before, just for fun.
It is hard to be a runner. It is hard to move through life amongst non runners. It is hard to not feel left out and to realize that you belong to a better club. A club that cares about well being and health. That black toenails signify winning a battle. That winning a lottery slot for a marathon is equal to winning a lottery of monetary value (ok maybe not like multi million dollar jackpots but you understand...)
I guess I am having an off day. I guess I am bored at work and feeling down in the dumps. I don't know. Just some things that have been on my mind lately. Sorry for the rant!